Limbo

I’m a total ENTJ. People who know me aren’t surprised. People familiar with the Myers-Briggs type indicators who talk to me just once can peg me for an ENTJ. I wear it on my sleeve.

Frank, decisive, assume leadership readily. Quickly see illogical and inefficient procedures and policies, develop and implement comprehensive systems to solve organizational problems. Enjoy long-term planning and goal setting. Usually well informed, well read, enjoy expanding their knowledge and passing it on to others. Forceful in presenting their ideas.

I’m in limbo. Limbo for an ENTJ is hell. I’ve applied to graduate school. Their process is lengthy and thorough; their program is highly competitive. I’m having to reconcile that waiting for what I want (news about graduate school) is worth more than having a plan right now. But a plan makes me feel safe. I know how to execute a plan. I don’t know how to wait.

And yet, I wait.

And the waiting is overwhelming sometimes. And exhausting. And stressful. I have no idea how waiting can be exhausting, but it is. I’m sure this is an awesome life lesson: you can survive without a plan. Fine. I get it. Life continues even if I can’t plan.

It would just go more smoothly if I could plan.

5 smart people left their mark:

  1. Abbey, 15. February 2010, 21:51

    As an ENFJ, I understand needing a plan!!

    Good Luck for Grad School. That’s a huge decision and you are really brave for going for it! CONGRATS to that!!

    I’m waiting on the edge of my seat to hear the outcome!!

     
  2. Catherine, 16. February 2010, 8:39

    Of course you’re an E! That’s obvious. It’s sort of amazing how accurate the personality profiles are – sort of like birth order.

    Is it the NJ that requires planning? I took a free online test yesterday and it said I was ESFJ, to which I was all – “uhm, not really”. I decided it meant that I am evolving and my NT is not as strong as it once was. I think that’s a good thing :)

     
  3. Tammy, 17. February 2010, 8:49

    Now apply this wait and inability to plan to having children. Agonizing! It is truly a life lesson. I’m still working on it.

    Your wait will end and I know you will be selected! They would be fools otherwise.

    Breathe. Deep breaths.

     
  4. Kelly O, 18. February 2010, 10:08

    As an E/INTJ, I totally, totally get what you’re saying. I generally have plans A through G, and the hardest thing is when the outcome isn’t in your control. xoxo
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  5. Gary, 26. February 2010, 9:27

    I knew we were friends for a reason. I am also ENTJ.